Boy, it has sure been a long time since I've blogged. I went through and deleted a few of my posts too because I deleted a bunch of pictures from my google account, which caused them to disappear from my blog too. What fun is a post without a few pics right?? :-)
I'm writing today about something that I found out just before
Christmas.....I have breast cancer!
And shame on you for thinking what you are right now!!! Oh, I KNOW exactly what you are thinking because I was you, not so long ago.
When I heard someone had cancer I thought it was the beginning of their end. That they would be sickly all the time and that even if they got through it, it would come back and eventually kill them. Yes, you are thinking that too, aren't you.
Well, I have learned otherwise and quite frankly, this may be one of the reasons I'm going through this. I have already learned a lot and they haven't even done my surgery yet.
Cancer is a scary word. You don't EVER want yourself or your family to have it because it brings up awful images of frail people, with no hair, bad skin color, looking down in the mouth and just sickly!!! It brings up that scary topic....DEATH!!!
But, things are not necessarily that way anymore. I'm not saying it's good. I don't want to have cancer, but I'm also not going to let cancer become who I am. It's a sickness, a disease I must deal with, like others who learn they have diabetes, or heart trouble, or a cavity. I have it, I must be treated for it, and then I will move on with my life from it.
I don't know what's ahead but I know my cancer was caught early and it's small and the doctors don't act like it's much of a big deal. They see so much worse on a daily basis, sadly. I didn't get all good news so far, but it's not been all bad either. I've been blessed in a lot of ways already.
God has given me a peace about this and it's because I've learned through the years that I can trust Him. I'm in His hands and there are no more capable hands than His.
I've just begun this journey through cancer and it's a bump in the road I don't want to go over, but I have to.
It's a dark tunnel and I'm not sure what's ahead because I can't see. And I'm not positive of what's on the other side of the tunnel either!!! But, God is in the driver's seat and I'm strapped in and I'm smiling, because He's a great driver!!